God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. -Serenity prayer
And acceptance is the answer to all of my problems today. If I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation–some aspect of my life–unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God’s world by mistake. -Acceptance prayer (? Is it a prayer? Well, it’s from the AA Big book, arguably the most quoted line)
Emma was waging an all out war on sleep last night. I tried every trick in the book–twice! It took almost 3 hours to get her back to sleep. She had woken up at 1:30. You do the math.
She had a pediatrician appt. this morning (just a check up), but when I went back to bed at 4-something, I decided to say screw it. No way was I getting to an appointment in 4 hours. Well, she still didn’t sleep as long as I’d hoped.
So I dropped her off at daycare. I get home, and realize I have a flat tire.
Ok, so that’s as far as I got before AAA showed up to put on my spare, and I went to the tire place. I think I managed to turn the day around. I made a new program call (SLAA), and then asked her to be my sponsor once I finish Step 1 with Chris. I’ll call her Natalie.*
Then I got a lot accomplished while I was waiting, I did some step work for my meeting with Cameron tomorrow, and started the application for the crisis line volunteer position which I have an interview for on Thursday.
The best news? Fixing my tire cost $0. I’d hit a pothole, so they just had to bend the tire back into shape–no charge! But the first thing I said when I called Natalie was, “I’m really struggling with acceptance today.”
I think in my last post I said something about how I struggle with outreach calls, because I don’t want to bother people. And look what happens when I step out of my comfort zone and make one to someone new! 🙂
Ok, now it’s hopefully time for that nap I’ve been fantasizing about all day!